Roadkill in a World Full of Crows

So uh...

After a nice vacation to Atlantic City to discuss some business with some associates of mine I got to thinking (don't ask why, because when I think it's never good).

I've got a date tonight, I've got finals this week and I've still got a broken heart. These three combined with liquor really make your thinking go great.

So there's this nurse that I have a date with. She's got a pretty face, some alright boobs, a nice little ass and altogether her body is about... a 7 or 8. Not perfect, but not too bad anyways.

Pros: She's got a pretty face. I've known her since junior high (because she was dating one of my friends up until about two months ago). I hear she's a great fuck, she's got a great personality and she's really got something going for her with this whole nursing business (boy would I like to be a baby nursing on---). Anyways, she's a breeder and I think I really want a kid or something about now.

Cons: She's not a 10 or even a 9. She dated one of my old friends (and a big one at that) and we live about an hour away from each other. She works a normal nurse's shift of anywhere from 8-12 hours a day 6 days a week. That really wouldn't be enough time to spend together you know? I mean, I LOVE spending time with my girl and showering her with gifts.

Which outweighs which? I'm not sure.

Second order of discussion... Finals Week.

Pros: No more school for over a month. I'll get to sleep in more.

Cons: It's FUCKIN' FINALS WEEK.

I think the pros outweigh the cons.

Next order of discussion: My broken heart. Now I know a lot of you have heard me squealing and that about "oh i'm so hurt boo hoo i'm gonna cry" blah blah blah. Truth is, at the moment, I'm quite numb. I think it has to do something with her ignoring me and not answering or returning any phone calls (though I haven't called her in over a week).

Pros: Because she's been ignoring me it's sorta made me numb so I can't really feel... anything. And it really makes it easier not to think about suicide or the like when you can't think about anything but her and you're not even sure how you feel when you do think about her. I've got a lot of Aces up my sleeves and I've got a mighty powerful bag of tricks, i know if I play my cards right I'll wind up with her in my arms, or with someone better in my bed.

Cons: I'm going insane. I look at people, just random people, and picture myself mutilating their faces. I mean... I'm totally off balance here. My laugh isn't one that i normally do with the whole hearty stuff, but it's one that's kind of... sickening. But then I remember how that lady who broke my heart is, and I smile to myself and know that if she doesn't wind up with me and goes for the men she seems to like... she'll be on the other side of the counter asking me "Would you like fries with that?" Okay, so maybe that last half wasn't so much of a con. But it was funny huh?

I walked around my good intentions
And found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years
We hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate
Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong

And if I don't make it
Know that I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out what's wrong

I walked around my room
Not thinking
Sinking in this box
I blame myself for being too much like somebody else
I never thought that I'd just bend this way
Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong

And if I don't make it
Know that I loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out what's wrong
And I hope to God I figure out what's wrong
I hope to God I figure out what's wrong

If I don't make it
Know that I loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out what's wrong

And if I don't make it
Know that I loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to God I figure out...