I may be some sort of crazy but...

So, I gave in and TRIED to apologize to her. I doubt she'll accept it, but at least she can't say that I didn't try.

Now that I've got that out of the way... I decided I'd like to indulge you all in my newest dilema.

I've got two women that want me. One that I don't really think is good enough for me and the other that's a bit... well it gets old FAST.

I've got a woman I still love, though she wants nothing to do with me, yet I still know it's unfair to even hint at faithfulness to any woman. See, I have a problem. Cameel still has something of mine that I won't get back, that I probably wouldn't request back. She has my heart. My heart... maybe I should replace it with a gizzard.

Then I've got a girl whom I like but is way out of my league, and like stated above I shouldn't even like her because I know nothing would come of it. Nothing ever does.

Someone told me today "be careful, I'd much rather you be alive." Alive... Is there a purpose for that? I mean, I guess I sort of have to stay alive right? Cause how else would a higher power torture me, you know?

Sometimes I wonder if that's the only reason I'm alive. I mean, the people I used to be able to make smile only seem to frown.

Frowns... Is that my fault? Can I really place the blame of anything on anyone anymore? I mean, I try, but I can't take all the blame myself. I'm broken, I'm beaten... and yet I'm still standing. It must mean something eh?

Maybe it means I'm a strong man, but I think it just means I'm naive. Maybe us men are all more naive than women.

Who am I to save you,
To try and tame you,
And now that you are free of me,
But next time when you break down,
Is it me you'll take down,
With you on your knees?

So who was I to hurt you,
To desert you,
When you needed me there,
So now that you've learned to hate me,
You're finally set free,
I fall to my knees,

And I'm breathing slowly,
Like you said to do when you had lost control,
My head spins from God's wind,
That carries you away from me,
Looks like you got away from me,
This time,
For good...

And since those days have passed me by,
I'm in and out of life,
The way you used to be,
You know I always was the strong one,
But now I've come undone,
Sweet Release...(come to me)

And I'm breathing slowly,
Like you said to do when you had lost control,
My head spins from God's wind,
That carries you away from me,
Looks like you got away from me, This time,
You got away from me oh yea,
You got away for good...